You know, a lot of things happened in my life, the things that goes by and passes by, and left me behind. I don't know... it just unpredictable, what I think I knew and I think its right it was confusing, cause I dont know it anymore, if those things are the right to be considered. I dont know God if the things that I've been decided is the right choices or not, I just follow my heart with some considerations and consequences that I have to prepare for every risk and caused. I feel like a really bad person right now, cause I harm my self to make other people happy, and I don't like it. Yes I know sometimes I act like a bitch and being selfish and don't care about other people think about me and other people want me to do, but honestly God, I do.. I do care, and I cannot pretend. I want to precede my self over anyone, but you know.. I just cannot do that, I think about it all the time. But God please, please, please help me. To feel everything, to feel as happy as I can be, to not feel insecure, to feel free and don't care about everything people feel about me, to ensure me that my choices are the right choices for my self, and I dont want people to get hurt. I just want to be alone and happy and no one knows.
My self in 2017,